IF YOU WANT, YOU CAN

Friendships matters to me most. I hope your decision wouldn’t affect our friendship… I trust you. Or should I tell you ?

Long time since my last post. I don’t know what to say about my life. I really wish one day I can live on my own and cut off all the ties.

I want a life of my own.

Where’s the light ?

I feels so awful whenever I see that I am no longer being appreciate. I am seen like just a nobody…A loner walking through the dark tunnel without the lights ahead. I want to be the top but I can never be one - even to be top in my life.I don’t hate you, in fact I’m glad that there is someone there to help me. But sometimes, I feel that you’re :

> nice [ because you bothers to comfort me ]

> attention-seeking [ because you can get the attention of everyone ]

> you shouldn’t be there [ because you take away all my lights ]

> too powerful [ because you made me stress and gloomy ]

But I ‘m not jealous and I wish I am like you where people trusts you and give you all the respect, gives you all the tasks.

I’m useless. Like an empty dim shell 

I always hope that you don’t take away my light, at least give me 30% of it…..